January 29, 2009

Wide awake review

Posted in Random, Uncategorized at 02:35 0 by gillsmoke

So I watched Wide Awake the other day, the premise seemed intresting, an independent film maker chronicles his own troubles with sleep. as a partial insomniac living with another insomniac this might be kind of cool. To borrow a phrase from CRSE “Get over yourself, nobody cares,” to which I would add “StFU!” The film maker makes a tremendous deal about not being able to get to sleep or stay asleep. The part that triggers the red flag of disbelief is his self diagnosis “Everybody tells me I look tired, and if you ever ask me how I’m doing, I’d probablly say ‘Tired’.” So you get off on being tired ok I can deal with that. The rest of the show was a self indulgent look at sleep, the science of sleep, and why the film maker is an asshole. He gives it away in the last 10 minutes, he spends hours cutting pictures from newspapers then sorting them into little boxes. That sir is not creative work that is (as CRSE would say) “mental masterbation”. You have a young child the you made sure went to bed at eight pm so daddy can go jolly himself. You sir are a prize asshole. Rumination my ass, nobody asked for you to archive the world, we have a library for that. Nobody asked you to stay up all night thinking stupid shit. Oooooo, mommy and daddy were fighting at night for years Booo Hoo Hoo. Sit down and Shut up! Like you are alone there, whatever. I wasn’t mad while watching the show but the whole affair is one of those things that come back in the middle of the night like this, what a wanker. did I really watch the whole thing? Yes I did, it’s a good thing I was folding laundry otherwise when I wake up in the middle of the night I’d want my time back.


January 17, 2009

Data data everywhere, but not a thought to think

Posted in Uncategorized at 07:33 0 by gillsmoke

I have a slight case of insomnia. It’s more like a case of data acquisition obsession. Give me data but not anything meaningful or helpful. No more like three articles about English translations of Proust, cardstock dice towers (Reliably roll dice to the same spot), What’s a Hackintosh and can I build one, hey let’s read the first of Proust’s Remembrance of Things Past, how much is a domain name, where can I get it hosted, what distro of Linux should I load on that old machine, what are the Top Coder standings.

And that is only one hour of fruitless web wandering. Where’s that writing assignment? How’s that JAVA class coming? So I sez to my self, “Self you are not taking very good care of your priorities,” to which I texted back, “StFU!”

January 16, 2009

Doom of Mayan proportions

Posted in blogging, Random, Uncategorized at 16:32 0 by gillsmoke

I’ve been thinking ever since I read this in 43Folders Clips . I’ve been thinking about data, memory, information vs knowledge, and a whole lot of crap that are first world problems. <rant>Except money makers on TopCoder are from around the world like these guys in China Which reminds me about a quote I once read “Starving children in Cambodia are learning to write programs” <\rant> Around the holidays I bought a 4GB memory stick and loaded XAMPP and mediawiki on it After reading the above post I have begun to put my public data into my private brain.

And still the fear haunts me, what would I do if I lost my brain? Some of you may snicker there, but the fear is growing. What if twitter changed to a subscription model, what if Google closes gmail, what if wordpress was sold as hard assets? I know a bunch of what ifs Like what if AOL bought up a bunch of free hosting sites and then pulled the plug on all of them without telling anybody, inconceivable I know. But they did, and now I wonder about the safety of my data. Why would I care if I lost all my wordpress posts? Nobody read them anyway. What if my crappy cellphone novel just disappears, who cares? To be honest I’m not sure even if I do, but the feeling I get is like being audited or that dream where there’s a test that you are not ready for. It’s like a digital form of Alzheimer’s, these digital memories are lobotomized out of reality. Again, who cares? Go make more more content with some other “free” provider. But that’s not the point. I want to remember that every November I basically stop blogging to write a bunch of words nobody ever reads (not even me), I look at my old posts around the new year and my birthday to look for signs of change (BTW not so much)

At work I have lost my email twice, when I moved machines and a hard drive failure, I didn’t really loose anything of importance to me, but I could see a legal battle where that would be awful.

At home I just got a new computer and there’s a harddrive with 60 gigs of data waiting to be put back into circulation. Till I plug the drive in the data only sort of exists.

Maybe I should just start writing everything down on paper too bad I have crappy handwriting.

Here I am fearing the Datapocalypse, until next time I’ll be reading Proust.

January 12, 2009

Still writing

Posted in Uncategorized at 18:56 0 by gillsmoke

Hey gang just a note to let people know I’m working on a story course and my JAVA class still.
The JAVA class isn’t what I’d thought it would be, but I kind of like it; and I am basically giving myself 500 word writing assignments based on the Writers Digest fiction class syllabus. I am just about sick of my crappy setting style, but I’m keeping with it and if CRSE promises to be nice I might show her my crappy writing for her wizardry.

January 7, 2009

Obligatory Resolutions

Posted in Uncategorized at 19:57 0 by gillsmoke

So here are mine.

Get JAVA certified
Write more
*Be more positive

Small incremental progress is what I’m looking for. Not big dramatic changes like the Shamwow or the burger station. (See CRSE I do read you)

And just for Dennick, We have something we forgot to give you over the holidays, it’s amazing and I’m sure you are going to love it because you read a lot.

*That is by CRSE’s request.