July 22, 2009

Fasting? WTF

Posted in life, Random, Uncategorized at 22:02 0 by gillsmoke

Well here’s the story on that. I got up extra early to get to the airport early enough to get through the security line. Pittsburgh Monday Morning plan on two hours just to get through security. My flight was 7:25 I was at the airport at 6:00 good but not great. Oh my flight was delayed till 8am. OK. I got bumped to first class on my new connecting flight, cool. I ended up passing out on the short flight to Charlotte and again the long flight to PR. I have a headache but I figure that’s just from no caffeine, but it makes it so I’m not at all that hungry. when I pick up my car it has GPS, cool San Juan to Ponce please and let’s get there by the shortest route. Ouch, I never get motion sickness. I got about half way on the constant switchbacks and had to pull over to puke. But wait I haven’t eaten so it’s just water and bile. I stop a couple more times to keep from puking and when I get to Coamo (hey there’s the plant) I stop at the Walgreens to get some Pepto and a fruit punch to wash away the bile and down the bismuth. by the time I got to the hotel it’s 8pm and all I want is to get some sleep.

I oversleep and the plant is about an hour from the hotel I’m at, it’s hot and muggy and I’m not hungry. The thought occurs to me, “It’s not a fast until three days.” I forget where I got that little gem at but since I’m not hungry and I’m on my way let’s see if we can. When I got back to the hotel that night I looked for places to eat and nothing seemed appealing. So today I said, “3 days that’s a fast, I need to eat. I should eat. I better eat.” I asked for a place that was open late who suggested Ponderosa which was closed and ended up at Denny’s which was open. Enough said I’ve already told that story.

The lady I’m working with said today as we were leaving, “You making me feel bad. the cafeteria is over there, across the street is ice cream and there’s coffee around the corner, and Burger King is up the road.” Don’t feel bad Ms. Rivera Reyes my wife can tell you I just get like that sometimes, stubborn and strange. but maybe we can do lunch tomorrow.


A reason to resume blogging

Posted in life, review, Uncategorized tagged at 21:29 0 by gillsmoke

I’ve had an Idea for a review site for a while. Something anonymous where people could send me a review. I edit it or just approve it and onto the site it goes. This is a review of the kind I would want to receive.

Hey Denny’s in Ponce PR, I know the ugly gringo tried to order in Ingles but that’s no reason to burn my food. The picture held such promise, but my Sizzling Chicken Platter was a charred pile of burnt Fail. What makes it most insulting was it was my first meal in three days. (I think that story is the next post.) My meal was awful but I ate it anyway, partly because I don’t know how to complain in Espanol, but mostly because I kept figuring I had to eat something, 3 days makes a fast, before that you’re just stalling. And by the way even the coffee was burnt. I rate this one of the worst dinners in my adult life. It’s up there with the “American Style” Restaurant in China, which is best summarized as, “Whoa buddy that wasn’t a cow steak that was shoe leather or dog and I’d rather not know which”.

October 7, 2008

TC writing prompt 10-07-08 A birthday present — on no one’s birthday

Posted in life, Random, writing prompts at 16:21 0 by gillsmoke

“Jeez here we go again,” i thouight as I saw the door open and suger grammy Squealed “come here, I’ve miiisssed you soooo much.”
as we walked in I saw the remnants of the months bills in toddler’s reach. I scooped them up and put them out of reach so the kids wouldn’t get yelled at later. Already bitter I saw the cake, and started humming “If I’d of know you were coming.” That’s right get them all hopped up on sugar then send them home, I wonder why everybody calls you the sugar grammy. Papi wasn’t around so the next 5 minutes were crucial. Don’t piss her off and be extra plesant and the kids would be ok. We just won’t mention the uncomfortable business that would result if things start badly.
“Tell me all about your school.” Too soon to say if it is a favoritism thing showing through. Mike answers thoughaly, the ever dutiful child.
Before she could just skip over Cameron I offered, “Now tell grammy what you do when brother’s in school.” Was that a sharp look?
Cam stuttered his way through an answer, now with a sweeping guesture here comes the grandiosity, “Well look what grammy found, It seem like somebody left some presents for you.” The two small boxes were wrapped in reused wrapping paper. One was clearly Christmas paper White with snowflakes and the other was Happy birthday paper with  confetti and balloons on it, If it weren’t for the coffee stain on the one and the taped up rip on the other I’d almost believed she cared. It was like a sucker punch, I saw it coming but the kids didn’t.

There’s more to go but I’ll let it send like that. This prompt screams for the unjust justice that CRSE would give it

October 4, 2008


Posted in Random, work, writing at 16:04 0 by gillsmoke

I like knowing the meta game we’re playing.
For instance when you are bitching about what the boss asked you for.
You are really saying, “I don’t want to help you”
and when you are complianing about the way you have no work and you’re worried about your job
You are really saying, “I feel insecure”
And when you mock me in front of others
You are really saying, “I like you”

September 9, 2008

Dedisgustify is not a word but it is a good discription

Posted in family, life, Random at 09:02 0 by gillsmoke

One room a day that’s my goal honey tonight the kitchen.

September 5, 2008

Who knew? a profane Tanka formed Rokku for you

Posted in life, Random, writing at 17:21 0 by gillsmoke

Coming back to home
Master is greeted by dog
sniffing tail wagging

I’m gonna kick you
in your fucking head if you
don’t stop floor pissing

Stupid goddamn jackass dog
I really fucking hate you

Hiaku / Hokku


August 17, 2008

Things I meant to say

Posted in family, life, Random at 21:28 0 by gillsmoke

Let’s get back to why you are no longer a Christian. Was it just the secular exposure?

If you people are going to send me for liquor the least you could do is drink it.

Although you all are making jokes about swinging, if any of you would like to have a mature discussion about polyamory let me know.

The reason I don’t have a top ten list is I’ m too easy to need one (I did say that in private and I should have said it in public).

Another *** reference, who do I have to call for an intervention?

Although It is time for us to go for the kids sake, I wish I could stay here and continue the conversation.

Thank you for having us (I know I said it but I don’t think I was heard).

A couple of days later I forgot to mention wanting to make the wrong decision and talking about parenthood as a spiritual journey.

And just tonight, You know I also turned my back on a similar display a couple of weeks ago.

EDIT: Just so’s ya all know. I have not had nor am I looking to have another lover. My life is complicated enough thank you very much. Polyamory like many fringe and obscure topics, I am more knowledgeable than experienced.

June 12, 2008

On My TODO: list

Posted in blogging, life at 21:03 0 by gillsmoke

Dear readers,
I assure you I have not died. Since returning from Puerto Rico I have been driven to distraction from my normal diversions. There will be something of substance in the near future. Till then please feel free to abuse me in your thoughts.

December 22, 2007


Posted in life, Random at 05:40 0 by gillsmoke

What if I told you all of your dreams would come true? What if I told you everything everybody believes is right, including the seemingly contradictory ones. Well they are. It is why I feel concerned about the far right and the far left, They are soo far apart that in some ways they are the same. I am left leaning but fear some of the implications of being a Democrat, I’d like to be a Republican (Smaller government, Fiscal responsibility) but with the religious Right in their corner and all the dirty tricks they pull to get elected, umm no thanks. I’d really like to see a candidate that has  my interests at heart. The way things are rigged, no way. One always end up being beholden to someone else.

People think the current state of affairs are somewhat new. They are not. the industrial giants weren’t called robber barons for nothing. Since permanent taxation things have been sliding downhill.

Even before that the Colonial powers were trying get all they could from the colonies. It’s tragic, but it always becomes about who gets the money. Right now it is a global game of give me the money I’m going to use to implement the oppression I have planned for you. It’s always “all about the money”. This I believe with all my heart. Therefore it is as real as can be. I say to my sons on a regular basis, “Once the police get involved it’s too late. You had better stop whatever you were doing.” That too is true as can be.


I found out this summer that the hills in hillbilly is in my backyard. I wonder how much of my experience is colored by my father’s family perspective. My mother’s side carries crazy. I know just exactly how much of my experience that covers. My dreams for myself are tortured. My dreams for humanity are lofty. My experience shows that anything can happen. My hands still hold promise of something great. My children, seem ready to go further than their parents. Where am I going with all this? I don’t know, maybe I’m just looking for Crawlspace’s ridicule or maybe CRSE’s acceptance. I must write. I don’t even care if it doesn’t make sense. It’ll all become clear later I’m sure.

June 29, 2007

Tell me again why you were late

Posted in life at 07:59 0 by gillsmoke

At my place of employment the employees have to fill out a form if they are more than a half hour late or leave more than a half hour early. There is room for an excuse. Mine today reads, “Secret Agent Duties”.

Was it worth it? Yes, it was, I wouldn’t want to do it again tonight. But I would if CRSE asked. I think there might be something else going on tonight. It’s like the holiday season without the gifts.

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